My Year.

So, my friend Jeanna and I have this thing where we decide what year it will be for each of us. For example, last year, my year was named The Year of Kelly to indicate that I was going to focus on myself in 2005 and not do anything that didn't feel good to me. Her year was The Year of Jeanna to indicate the same.

Jeanna has decided to call her year: The Year of the Oak Tree - meaning that she wants to stand strong and not let small "breezes" shake her "leaves or branches." I think this is clever. There is more to it, but we'll leave it at that and Jeanna can tell you more if you'd like. Well, I am still in the process of deciding my year. It's something that you can't force, it just has to come to you. So, here are my two ideas...I'd like to know which one you like.

1) The Year of the Scales: For me, this year would be about judgment scales and suspending my judgment, particularly when it comes to myself. I try not to judge others, but I still tend to judge and put a lot of pressure on myself to be the best, to be perfect, to be a lot of unreasonable and unattainable things. My motto for this year would be: It is through acceptance, not judgment, that I achieve wholeness.

2) The Year of the Grindstone: I am currently very unhappy with my work ethic in the school, job, and financial realms of my life. I would like to remedy this by focusing on what I can do to get out of debt early, maximize my educational potential, and start my life by not being wholly a student anymore. I need to be proactive! I need to put my nose and probably a whole bunch of other body parts to the grindstone.

What do you think? Ultimately, it will be my decision (ha, I'm such a bitch), but I would really like your input because if I gave you the address to this very personal blog and you're reading about the every interworking of my life, then I probably think you are an important person and I think it's worth hearing your opinion. :) So thanks!

Love you!