Yay! Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear Grandma, Happy Birthday to you!! Being on this planet for 70 years is a big accomplishment and I hope you have a really wonderful day, Grandma. I love you!
Hello everyone else! I just slept for 11 hours and it's a sunny Seattle day - what more could a girl want? I am feeling so much better than yesterday when I was so tired. I haven't been getting good sleep lately because of school and I've just been neglecting my entire body of rest, nutrition, and exercise. But, I'm also at a different place in my life right now where that stuff (aside from sleep) isn't as important. It's funny, because I am more relaxed this year than I was last year when I was so concerned about getting ample sleep, proper food, and enough exercise that I wasn't even enjoying it. This year, I'm enjoying it. I'm enjoying just being. Hooray for me!
I've also realized that, at the moment, I am SO OVER being friends with people who are insecure. Arrggh. I tire of them very easily; especially since our friendships seems to revolve around them competing with me, then me compensating for them. I don't want to compete with my friends! I don't want to have to compensate for my friends all the time! And I shouldn't have to feel like everything is a contest or every compliment is loaded. For crying out loud, I can't deal with it! I understand that friendships in and of themselves are all different, but I am recognizing that my "insecurely patterned" friendships are the ones I am most unhappy with. And I shouldn't have to be responsible for "helping" these people who think they have friendships with me. My work/school life should not need to overlap with my home/personal life. Yes, the nature of my training and my job-to-be is helping others and, yes, friendships are essentially reciprocal, therapeutic relationships, but need I remind you that friendships turn into solely therapeutic relationships when there is no reciprocity involved.
Okay, I'm done. I just have been endlessly frustrated with the state of affairs in my friendships and I can't really stand it anymore.
Now, I'm going to read the paper.
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